Allow me to edit my previous post.
I am NOT saying that I decided to home school to keep my kids from being hurt. I AM saying that regardless of where they are being schooled, either
public
private or
home
the hurt, exclusion, lonliness is going to happen.
Sad, but true. You can't hide from it, in a world full of sinful people, us included.
I wish I could change it for my kids. I truly do.
I have to give it to God.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Why are kids so cruel? Is it in their DNA? Is it their upbringing? What causes children to turn away and ignore another child? To say hurtful things? Is it sin from the "Fall"? Should we blame Adam and Eve for this one? Is that what I tell my daughter who's "friends" ignore her when she asks them to play?
I'm sorry they won't play with you honey, but Eve ate the apple.....
And what do you tell your children, who have no friends?
How do you stop the flood of memories that come rushing back...memories of your own childhood. Memories of the years and years of endless hurt and lonliness. Remembering all the years you thought there was something wrong with your own personality. How do you keep this from making you a bitter and vengeful Mommy?
"There must be something wrong with me. I always say, or do, or act the wrong way."
What about your son who acts out, who has decided that negative attention from his peers is better than no attention from his peers.
Home school. We decided to home school. At home, they will be loved, and accepted. They won't have to deal with all this "middle school drama".
I should Trust God. Trust that He has this on His radar and in His hand. Be patient for His timing. He will send people and friends at the right time. Trust that His leading us to home school will prevent the scars......
I'm sorry they won't play with you honey, but Eve ate the apple.....
And what do you tell your children, who have no friends?
How do you stop the flood of memories that come rushing back...memories of your own childhood. Memories of the years and years of endless hurt and lonliness. Remembering all the years you thought there was something wrong with your own personality. How do you keep this from making you a bitter and vengeful Mommy?
"There must be something wrong with me. I always say, or do, or act the wrong way."
What about your son who acts out, who has decided that negative attention from his peers is better than no attention from his peers.
Home school. We decided to home school. At home, they will be loved, and accepted. They won't have to deal with all this "middle school drama".
I should Trust God. Trust that He has this on His radar and in His hand. Be patient for His timing. He will send people and friends at the right time. Trust that His leading us to home school will prevent the scars......
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Faith
OK, so I am taking a walk (or a leap) of faith. Faith in God. And my friends. The Lord's been telling me for a few years - "be more outgoing, talk to people, make friends, be friendly, share MY LOVE". So, in obedience, I am doing it. It is totally out of my comfort zone. I have made a life, a habit of keeping things to myself. Of not wanting to get hurt. Somehow, in urging me to do these things, God must have some plan. So, here goes.
A blog. I have never, in my life, kept a diary. "If you don't want people to know things, don't write them down", has always been my motto. Yet for the past few weeks, I haven't been able to stop thinking about writing. I am a terrible writer. What's in my heart very rarely comes out of my mouth, much less onto paper.
So, here goes. Please bear (bare?) with me.....
A blog. I have never, in my life, kept a diary. "If you don't want people to know things, don't write them down", has always been my motto. Yet for the past few weeks, I haven't been able to stop thinking about writing. I am a terrible writer. What's in my heart very rarely comes out of my mouth, much less onto paper.
So, here goes. Please bear (bare?) with me.....
Clutter
As I started my day in the kitchen, I noticed all the things on the counters.
A half-eaten birthday cake
A mostly melted candle
An empty lunch box.
Bills, lists and empty envelopes
Why does everything land on my kitchen counter tops? It creates such a cluttered, junky mess.
And amongst all the clutter, I see History notebooks, pens, pencils, homework.
Ahhh, a homeschool family lives here. What a safe, comforting feeling to know that my kids not only live here,they also learn here.
But I don't always feel that comforted. Somedays, my thoughts and my feelings are just as cluttered and junky as my counter tops.
"What am I doing?"
"Why am I homeschooling?"
"Am I depriving my children of something greater?"
"I am a complete failure."
All these thoughts and more, strewn about my head, like clutter. So un-focused, without purpose.
In this world with so much "clutter" going on around us in our day to day lives (bathroom remodeling, bills to pay, grocery shopping, etc.), it's hard to stay focused on our purpose.
Isaiah 26:3-5
People with their minds set on you, you keep completely whole,
Steady on their feet, because they keep at it and don't quit.
Depend on God and keep at it, because in the Lord God you have a sure thing.
Why are we a homeschool family? And how in the world am I going to do it?
2Corinthians 9: 8
God can pour on the blessings in astonishing ways so that you're ready for anything and everything, more than just ready to do what needs to be done.
Keeping my mind on Him, and in His Word. That's how I'm going to do it. With a little help from my God and my friends, I am going to keep the "clutter" picked up and in it's proper place!
A half-eaten birthday cake
A mostly melted candle
An empty lunch box.
Bills, lists and empty envelopes
Why does everything land on my kitchen counter tops? It creates such a cluttered, junky mess.
And amongst all the clutter, I see History notebooks, pens, pencils, homework.
Ahhh, a homeschool family lives here. What a safe, comforting feeling to know that my kids not only live here,they also learn here.
But I don't always feel that comforted. Somedays, my thoughts and my feelings are just as cluttered and junky as my counter tops.
"What am I doing?"
"Why am I homeschooling?"
"Am I depriving my children of something greater?"
"I am a complete failure."
All these thoughts and more, strewn about my head, like clutter. So un-focused, without purpose.
In this world with so much "clutter" going on around us in our day to day lives (bathroom remodeling, bills to pay, grocery shopping, etc.), it's hard to stay focused on our purpose.
Isaiah 26:3-5
People with their minds set on you, you keep completely whole,
Steady on their feet, because they keep at it and don't quit.
Depend on God and keep at it, because in the Lord God you have a sure thing.
Why are we a homeschool family? And how in the world am I going to do it?
2Corinthians 9: 8
God can pour on the blessings in astonishing ways so that you're ready for anything and everything, more than just ready to do what needs to be done.
Keeping my mind on Him, and in His Word. That's how I'm going to do it. With a little help from my God and my friends, I am going to keep the "clutter" picked up and in it's proper place!
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